Someone turn the light on please...

Monday 15 October 2007

Whoever said that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, could you please shine it for me so I can catch a glimpse!

I have been a Yummy Mummy for 16 weeks now and I kind of thought that I had made it past all the huge hurdles of new Yummy Mumminess, only to be struck a major and life changing blow.

I have been diagnosed with postnatal depression.

I guess i knew I was suffering from it but like many woman before me admitting it is easier said than done. The last 16 weeks I have been like super woman on speed, I have the perfect daughter, she is beautiful, clever, very advanced for her age, she is weaned, she sleeps through the night need I go on? My house is always shining like a new pin, my husband sent to work pressed and fed, me I am never without make-up and freshly blow dried hair.

I am great right?

WRONG!!

I am the captain of a ship and its sinking fast, someone has got to thorough me a life line or I'm going down.I admit it, I can't do it all it's hard, and it hurts.

I adore my baby, I would die for her, but I am overwhelmed with it all - why do I put so much pressure on myself to be the best? I want to be the best Mummy so badly I can't let her down that's what I am thinking 24/7 . I am blessed, I am surrounded by love and support, so why do I feel so alone?

 

Is there any body out there...